January 28th

Chinese new year eve. Bla, I'm waiting for dinner to start so might as well just blog since i have not been blogging for the past few days. This year CNY is boring, I predict,most likely i'm gonna be correct, smash. Everybodies gotta go visit relative and stuff, unlike me, Im just gonna be visiting 2 places, Firstly, to my godma's house =D, Its been so long since i last saw her, cant wait! =D Secondly, and lastly, my grandma's house, bla, boring man, CNY is so sucky for the past 2 years. Just SO EMPTY! no mather how much red packet i can get, it feel so fucking empty. Bla! Anyway, I'm wearing differently this year,lol! Like how nasrum phrase it -The Usher look.bought a coat from topshop, then gonna wear a t-shirt inside and jeans with my dunks, dont look bad actually. LOL! lets see what people gonna say about how i wear. Second top, simple, long-sleeves,collar shirt, strips design, Black and white, NICE! =D ahahas! bought a jacket also, Jordan edition or what lah, white colour! Wooo! I hope i dont look sloppy during CNY , thats most important.

Bla, enough about CNY, Lately, edmund said something that i remembered so clearly till now, On a tuesday if im not wrong, me and edmund decided to go coffeebean study, then i was like "call clement along lah, he can teach us also." We tried asking clement, but he seem reluctant, then edmund said something like "Don't call already lah, keep calling ,making us sound as if we cannot do without him like that." Hahas, how true is that, when u call people out, people reject you and u keep asking and asking, fucking like make urself so low, like begging people. If edmund had not say those words that day, i'll still be making myself look so cant do without people. Bla! Fucking hell at times, people just dont give a fuck about you, even your closest friends, this are the period you realize you gotta be on your own, You cant forever be clinging on to others. 48 laws of power said the same thing, being over dependent on someone is not good. Dont always go to people, make people come to you. It can be applied everywhere, like me, I wont be the one asking whats wrong or whatso-ever to others if they're having trouble, its as simple as that, you trust me then you'll tell me, if not then just keep it to yourself. I'll be there with arms wide open for anyone facing any problems, as long they need a listening ear, or someone who can offer a useful advice, If they dont trust me or dont wana tell me, then its their own fucking problem. i wont bother asking more.In the future if you guys do think i've change, call me a changed person, whatever. I'll still be the same. Its the way that i handle my things that make you think that way. sorry, thats just the way i am. Smash.